Me outside vs. Me inside

"Fuck I hate me why am i here?"

I usually keep my sadness pent up inside...

I usually keep my sadness pent up inside where it can fester quietly as mental illness.

You are living with something that you keep hidden deep inside

As I see it,
you are living with something that you keep hidden deep inside.
Something heavy.
I felt it from the first time I met you.
You have a strong gaze,
as if you have made up your mind about something.
To tell you the truth,
I myself carry such things around inside.
Heavy things.
That is how I can see it in you.
- Haruki Murakami

...when we realized the monsters were inside us

We stopped checking for monsters under our bed when we realized they were inside us.